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  “I know.”

  “Are you all right?”

  “Honestly, no.”

  “Are you and Blake on the rocks?”

  I thought about that and what I should say. “Maybe.”

  “Let’s have a girl’s night. I’ll call Abby.”

  “Cheyenne, I’m tired—”

  “At least think about it,” she cut me off.

  “Okay.”

  “You know we love you, right?”

  “I know.”

  And I did know. Abby and Cheyenne were the best friends a girl could ask for. I got in more trouble with them than anyone. My mom called us ‘trouble buddies’ growing up. We hadn’t gotten in much trouble lately. Abby was settled and married to Dr. Shane Parker with three kids: Connor, twelve; Avery, ten; and my middle namesake, Isabelle, was four. I loved those kiddos. Cheyenne was anything but settled. She had a new man for every season. She loved playing the field and made no apologies about it.

  I slept for a couple of hours before I got ready for the day. While I was getting ready I noticed half the items on the bathroom counter were missing. At first I thought maybe Blake had wiped off the countertop and forgotten to replace his toiletries, but I searched below his sink and it was hollow. Then I looked up and noticed his bathrobe wasn’t hanging near the shower, either. I walked over to his walk-in closet that was situated right outside our bathroom and found most of his clothes were missing.

  I sat on my bed, stunned. I thought he said he wanted to work it out and that he needed me. I wasn’t ready to call it quits yet. I came home so we could at least try. I pulled out my phone and punched in his number.

  He picked up on the first ring. “Jessica.”

  I skipped the pleasantries. “You moved out and you weren’t even going to tell me?”

  “Will you calm down? I didn’t move out.”

  “Then where are all of your things?”

  “I moved into the guest bedroom.”

  “Why?”

  He paused and took a deep breath. “I figured we each needed some space and to start over.”

  “All we’ve given each other is space.”

  “Yeah, we’re good at that, aren’t we?”

  “So, what are you saying?”

  “Jessica, all I know is that if you don’t trust me or love me anymore, it means I’ve messed up somewhere along the way. I don’t know how to fix that other than starting over.”

  “What does that mean?”

  “I don’t know. I’m trying to figure it out.”

  I guess we were both trying to figure out our lives. “I guess I’ll see you later.”

  “You can count on that.”

  Chapter Four

  After a day of grocery shopping and being gawked at, I made it back home. I had made the mistake of going into Jessie Belle’s to get my laptop and to check on things. This town loved a juicy piece of news, and apparently we gave them a taste yesterday. I could only imagine how abuzz this town was going to be if Blake really ended up being the father to Sabrina’s daughter. We may have to move.

  At least our little blow-up made people quit looking at my abdomen. Cheyenne and Abby told me I was paranoid, but I swore when people greeted me they always looked at my abdomen first, like there was something to see. I almost lifted up my shirt on occasion to say, “See there’s nothing there, but a flat, empty, no man’s land.” All I had to show for all my pregnancies were two small stretch marks left by my son. Even they were barely noticeable now.

  By the time I got home it was dinnertime. Blake still wasn’t home, so I decided to make a meal for one. I didn’t have much of an appetite, but I needed to start somewhere, and linguine and salad were the jumping off point.

  As I ate by myself at our large farmhouse-style table I wrote out some ideas for new menu items. While shopping I had noticed a display for s’mores. It got me thinking about a gourmet, homemade version. If I could pull off a good recipe, I could have it ready to go for the fall menu. I was thinking of two homemade graham cookies, dipped on one side with dark chocolate and a roasted marshmallow in between them, and maybe some toasted coconut. I wasn’t sure about the coconut; I would have to see how it went. First though, I was going to have to come up with a graham cookie recipe.

  I had to admit, I felt a little excited to be experimenting in the kitchen again. It even opened up my mind to a whole line of graham-style treats. By the time I had finished eating, I had several pages of ideas written down.

  I didn’t feel well after eating dinner and cleaning up. I think my stomach wasn’t sure what to do with real nourishment, so I took to the couch and pulled up The Sound of Music. It was my all-time favorite. My mom and I used to watch musicals together frequently when I was growing up. Maria was just singing about larks learning to pray when my front door opened. I expected to see Blake, but realized he never used the front door. Instead it was my meddlesome best friends.

  “Oh, crap, she has the musicals going. This must be bad,” Cheyenne said as soon as they walked in.

  Sweet Abby smiled and shook her head.

  I lay back on the couch and rolled my eyes.

  They both came around and unceremoniously moved me, placing me between them. I felt squished, but loved.

  “Hello, ladies.”

  They both laughed at me.

  I hit pause on the television.

  “So spill,” Cheyenne said.

  I didn’t even know where to begin. I had more issues than Vogue magazine. I drew my knees into myself and leaned on Cheyenne. Abby leaned on me, sandwiching me in between the two.

  “Your hair smells nice,” Abby commented.

  I snickered some. “It’s that new shampoo Cheyenne got in at her salon.”

  “Yadda, yadda, yadda,” Cheyenne interrupted. “We can talk about hair later. We came here to find out what’s going on with our best friend and why she spent the night at her parents’ house. And most importantly what happened after her husband sneaked into said parents’ house?”

  “How did you know all that?”

  “Honey, I run the most successful salon in this town. I know everything.”

  “That’s disturbing,” I said.

  She laughed. “Well, if I were more villainous I could probably make some good money blackmailing people.”

  “Cheyenne, you wouldn’t,” Abby said, I think more to reassure herself than anything.

  Cheyenne rolled her gorgeous blue eyes. She was the Barbie doll best friend, complete with perfect body and blonde hair.

  “So did you and Blake have some hot make-up session at your parents’ house or what?” Cheyenne asked.

  “Or what,” I answered.

  “That’s disappointing,” Abby said to my and Cheyenne’s surprise.

  We both laughed at her.

  “What? I’m a desperate housewife and I could do with a steamy story.”

  “I’m sorry to disappoint you.” I smiled. No matter how miserable I was, these women could always make me smile. I felt like we were back in high school and kissing and telling. Unfortunately, there was no kissing involved. Not that I would tell, even if there were.

  “So why are you wrapped up in a blanket and watching musicals on a Saturday night?” Cheyenne asked again.

  “My marriage is in trouble,” I sighed.

  “Tell us something we don’t know,” Cheyenne said.

  “Has is it been that obvious?”

  “Well, let’s see. You’re never seen together and you never talk about him anymore, you’ve had to deal with more crap than most couples, and until tonight we haven’t seen you smile in months.”

  I leaned in more to Cheyenne and buried my face into her shoulder and cried. Both she and Abby started stroking my hair.

  “This cut really does look good on you,” Cheyenne said to lighten the mood.

  “You’re a genius.”

  “I know,” she responded seriously.

  “Are you and Blake getting a divorce?” Abby asked.
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  “He doesn’t want one, but he moved into the guest bedroom.”

  “Why?” Abby asked concerned.

  “He said we needed to start over and he needed to earn my trust back, so he’s trying to give me my space.”

  “How do you feel about it?” Cheyenne asked.

  “I don’t know. It’s not like we were really sharing a bedroom, anyway.”

  “No wonder you guys aren’t happy. Maybe you should sneak into his room tonight.”

  “You, Cheyenne, have a one track mind.”

  “You guys better get back on the track,” Abby contributed.

  “Ladies, I appreciate your concern about my love life, but ever since—you know—I just don’t feel like a real woman. Does that sound crazy?”

  “A uterus doesn’t make you a real woman. Heck, what I wouldn’t do sometimes not to have a period every month,” Cheyenne said in her brash style.

  “I’ll trade you.”

  “Oh, honey, I didn’t mean anything by it. I’m thankful for my uterus. Is that better?”

  “What you said didn’t bother me. I get it. I just wanted a baby more than anything and now I can never have one,” I sobbed.

  My best friends squeezed me tight. “We know, honey,” Abby said. “We wanted that for you, too.”

  “What about adoption or surrogacy?” Cheyenne asked.

  I shook my head against them. “Blake won’t. He says it’s too risky and he can’t take losing another baby. He’s done.”

  “That’s understandable,” Abby said.

  It was, but it still hurt, especially now under the possible circumstances.

  I sat up and wiped my eyes while my concerned friends looked on. I’ve never seen them look so worried.

  “Can I tell you guys something?”

  “Of course,” they sang in unison.

  “It can’t leave this house. Understood?”

  They both nodded their heads.

  “Blake got a phone call yesterday from a one night stand he had after we broke up, and she’s claiming Blake is the father of her daughter.”

  “No!” Cheyenne gasped.

  Abby didn’t say anything, but her wide green eyes said it all.

  “It’s true. Do you remember my old roommate, Sabrina?”

  “She was awful,” Abby said.

  “Yeah, well, apparently not too appalling.” She was a bombshell, I’m not going to lie. And boy, did she know how to work it. I just never thought it would work on Blake. I knew she thought he was attractive. I would take a guess most women did. He had only gotten more attractive since he turned forty. Why did men get more attractive as they aged? It almost seemed unfair. I even liked the gray strands that were interwoven in his thick, dark hair.

  “What happened?” Cheyenne asked.

  “I don’t want to know. All I know is that she’s sick with cancer and she called Blake out of the blue.”

  “Do you think it’s true?” Abby asked.

  “I suppose it could be. Blake admitted to sleeping with her.”

  “What are you going to do if it is?” Abby asked.

  I shrugged my shoulders. I wasn’t sure of anything at that moment.

  “Well, I’ll tell you what I’m going to do, the next time I see Blake. I’m going to—”

  “What’s that?” my husband asked Cheyenne.

  We all turned around. I hadn’t heard him come in. There he stood in his dirty and dusty jeans, t-shirt, and work boots. He looked worn.

  That didn’t stop Cheyenne. She stood up and faced him. “Take care of Jessie, or you’ll find out. Let’s just say you won’t be able to father any more children.”

  Blake looked at me unhappily.

  I made no apologies. I needed my friends more than ever.

  Abby stood up and looked between my husband and me. “We should be going now, Cheyenne.”

  Cheyenne reached down and hugged me one more time. “Just say the word,” she whispered in my ear.

  I shook my head at her.

  Abby hugged me, too. Then they rushed out my door, but not before Cheyenne gave my husband her look of deepest loathing.

  My husband still continued to stare at me, unfazed by Cheyenne’s behavior.

  I ran my fingers through my hair nervously. “Hi.”

  “Hi,” he said back.

  “How was your day?”

  “Long. I’m going to jump in the shower.”

  I reminded myself love wasn’t only a noun, it was a verb, too. “Do you want me to warm up some dinner? I made linguine.”

  “No, I’ll make something for myself.”

  “Okay.” I turned back around.

  “Jessica.”

  I turned back toward him.

  “Thank you for offering. How was your day?”

  “I’ve had worse.”

  He frowned and walked away.

  I turned back toward the television and hit play. Take me away, Julie Andrews, I thought. As I watched I realized that Captain von Trapp reminded me of Blake. Very handsome and authoritative—he didn’t say much, but when he spoke you listened. He was strong, but when the moment was right he would let you in, and they were moments you would never forget. I was probably nothing like Maria von Trapp, other than I had basically been celibate like a nun for the last several months. I did wonder if I could be a good stepmother like her. I was still trying not to think of that possibility.

  I was asleep on the couch by the time Blake joined me with a plate of baked chicken and vegetables in hand. He sat on the opposite end of the couch and it woke me up.

  “Sorry I woke you.”

  I sat up some. “It’s okay, I should probably go to bed.” I looked at his plate full of bland food. I didn’t know how he ate food so plain.

  He noticed my staring. “What?” he asked.

  “Does it bother you that we don’t have anything in common?”

  He set down his glass of ice water and lemon on the side table. “I’m not following you.”

  “It’s just … we are so opposite one another.”

  His brows furrowed. “Opposites attract.”

  “Studies show that’s not really true.”

  “Well, in our case it is.” He turned back to his dinner.

  I watched him eat as the credits for the movie rolled on the screen.

  He took a few bites and looked back over my way. “Does it bother you?”

  “It worries me. I feel like we live completely separate lives.”

  He set his plate down and turned more toward me. “Then let’s change that. What do you want to do together?”

  This was good progress for us. Normally he would dismiss such a comment. I scooted closer. “I want to get back to the gym. Maybe you could teach me how to play racquetball.” That was something I knew he enjoyed and something I thought I could get into.

  “Hmm…”

  I shook my head in confusion. I thought that would be a no-brainer.

  “I’ll pay for you to get lessons and then when you’re ready we can play together.”

  I arched my eyebrow in complete annoyance. “Never mind. I’ll go back to Zumba and kick-boxing.” I threw off the afghan my dearly departed nana had crocheted me and made a beeline for our bedroom—I mean my bedroom.

  “Jessica, what’s wrong?” he called out after me.

  He really was clueless sometimes.

  Chapter Five

  The weekend didn’t get much better. Blake spent Sunday on a fifty-mile bike ride in the mountains with Easton, his one and only friend in this town. I liked Easton Cole, he was the best family practice doctor in town, but he was married to an awful woman, Kathryn. Over the years we had done a couple of things with them, but it was awkward. You see, I was still friends with his ex-wife, Taylor, who now lived in Birmingham, Alabama. I had gone to high school with Kathryn, and we were anything but friends. When Easton and Taylor divorced several years ago I couldn’t understand why. Taylor was beautiful and kind and they seemed to be really in lov
e. Then all of sudden Taylor was gone and they were divorced and Easton married his nurse. Boy, did this town have a heyday with that.

  I don’t know if Easton had an affair—it was none of my business—but I always got the feeling he regretted marrying Kathryn. I think if they didn’t have Emmy, their eight-year-old daughter, they would probably be divorced, too. And then lately there were rumors swirling about Kathryn and her personal trainer. Again, who knew if they were true? For Easton and Emmy’s sake I hoped not.

  When Taylor and I communicated we never spoke about it. We mostly talked about her daughter, Ashley, whom she shared with Easton. She was fifteen now and beautiful like her mother. Easton rarely saw Ashley and she and Emmy had never met. How does life end up getting so messed up? How do good people make such stupid mistakes? I counted myself as one of those people. I’d throw Blake in there, too.

  I, on the other hand, spent Sunday at church and then at my parents’ home for dinner. I only went to church now because I taught the teen Sunday school class. My heart really hadn’t been in it for a long while now, but when I told our pastor he should find someone to replace me, he politely declined. I think he knew it was what kept me coming. Besides, the kids in my class loved my homemade cinnamon rolls and I loved my twenty rambunctious students.

  Several of them frequently stopped by the café after school. I handed out milk and cookies and homework help to any kid that needed it. It was the one thing I felt like I did that was worthwhile anymore.

  Sunday night I spent in my bed, alone. I used the time to write out some possible recipes for a graham cookie and a cannoli shell. When Monday dawned I actually felt a little anticipation. I was looking forward to getting back into the kitchen at Jessie Belle’s and creating. I was also planning to hit the gym. Apparently, per Cheyenne’s intel, there was a new Zumba instructor and he was amazing. I didn’t need to lose any weight; I just needed to feel alive.

  I ran into Blake and stumbled some as I came out of the bedroom. I was more than surprised—I thought he would have been long gone. I didn’t have to go into the café early anymore, so I rarely saw him in the mornings. I had hired an amazing manager last year in anticipation of staying home with the baby, and though that didn’t happen, I still kept Aaron on. I should probably let him do more of my job, and maybe I would someday, but sometimes Jessie Belle’s was my lifeline.